back in AA for me

[Jdog0830]

Don't worry to much about what Sin Cut says Horsey he busts my balls a lot to.




Joe

[horsey]

well really it's not a sore subject though.im doing well in fact,alot better then most off alcohol.

[Jdog0830]

I am glad that you are over comeing ones own personal demons for most people is a constant strugle for there entire life.
Most people I think then begin to hate themselfs from having those demons and the end result is never happy but never give up.




Joe

[Sin Cut]

Just wondering, how often ARE you drinking?

not much at all really.i bought a case of beer at the begining of the month an haven't bought anymore since.
they are gone now ,figure i need a break anyway.i could buy more but really haven't wanted too.

That doesn't sound that much to me. Why exactly are you calling this a drinking problem? Because you've ran out of beer?

[horsey]

no because i went from drinking EVERYDAY too not drinking quite as much.

[zihuatenajo]

f?licitation mon amie

[Albert S Miller]

I thought this was an English speaking board zihuatenajo, yet it is nice of you to congratulate your friend Horsey .

[zihuatenajo]

you thought right : my bad

[Albert S Miller]

It's all good, but I don't speak it and so I have to go on a mission to figure out what you are saying lol...  Oh well at least I have managed anyhow

[Jdog0830]

That's good keep it up horsey!!!


Joe

[horsey]

looks like another try at this sobrioty thingy.as far as today i realised something i cannot do this to myself another min.
i took a long walk to the park in the heat 96 % and found myself.sat by the water it was beautiful.i took it all in an reflected on my life.i spent my whole life on drugs an drinking.but today i dunno what happened.maybe being sick an tierd of being indoors ,yes too.cabin fever in the summer crazy right.
but im so glad i feel a lift over me.may also start friday going to a meeting.i just can't live another minute for a stupid buzz that goes away anyway.
wish me luck cause it's really gonna be hard without family support.they just dunn get it being addicts themselves.

[horsey]

called a friend in AA tonight an he said.he was going to have someone call tomorrow to take me to a meeting.
he was very excited about me  coming back.feels great not pulling back and smokeing weed today.held strong being offered all day.didn't do it stayed to myself.

[horsey]

no call and today waited for bus in the rain.it never came so no meeting yet today.stressen so bad about bills and family shit.i just don't know.

[fieldsy]

No offence but either do AA or don't.  You either have an issue with alcohol or you dont.  You either want to give up or you dont.  And yes from reading your posts it really is as simple as that.

[horsey]

yeah you maybe right an also it's not a social event.
sometimes want to think so.
i may not just be the type to advertise my problems to other outside people.
ya see my life is very complacated and am very private because of it.

[fieldsy]

Yet you advertise your life to a GNR board that for the most part have no experience with alcohol misuse?

Look, I wish you well but there are too many inconsistencies in what you are saying

[horsey]

well maybe that's for me to figure out.
the most part i have put alcohol under control for now.
if it seem's to become a problem and i need to make a meeting.
at least i know i have a choice in the matter.
i have given you all the info not for insults but as friends who have advice.
and possibly be going through the same thing.that's what im more comfortable doing for now.
kinna  ::)an feeling like this right now  but life is better sober im sure.

[horsey]

also people on the boards know me sorta and understand a bit more , then strangers in meetings.
who knows maybe i would trust more in people but been hurt too many times.

[w.axl.rose]

why dont you edit your post instead of double posting?

[horsey]

why dont you edit your post instead of double posting?

too lazy and in a hurry, on my way somewere right now.