back in AA for me

[journey]

I hate it when every addiction is about fighting demons and how everyone is the victim of his own luggage.

Here's a thought, maybe you're addicted to something just 'cause you like it. And shitty childhood is just scapegoat?

A tough childhood isn't always the reason. Addiction is a symptom of what you called a separate problem. If someone is stressed, disappointed, sad, etc...then they'll want something to make them feel good. After awhile it becomes a habit. And most addictions alter serotonin levels, which is why it's hard to quit. But nothing's impossible. Everyone has the strength within to change. If it was easy it wouldn't be called a battle.

[FunkyMonkey]

you know what goes great together, cheap wine, and cheap women, add a little cheap jon and it's the best night you've ever had

I didn't expect to see this in a thread "back in AA for me", maybe not appropriate, but it made me laugh.

[horsey]

yeah well im an expensive women ,gots lots of demon's lol.

[horsey]

 
i would say at this point pain would be a real factor.
my arm-pit is so sore right now,im like assed up.
ive been trying to remain pretty calm though but it still more pain meds away from tonight's sleep.
please let me get some regular sleep,not drunk sleep.
im trying to not drink but it really makes me forget the pain.
muscle relaxers just make me rubbery lol.
last  night i was singing the rubber ducky song before i feel asleep.

[Sin Cut]

i would say at this point pain would be a real factor.
my arm-pit is so sore right now,im like assed up.
ive been trying to remain pretty calm though but it still more pain meds away from tonight's sleep.
please let me get some regular sleep,not drunk sleep.
im trying to not drink but it really makes me forget the pain.
muscle relaxers just make me rubbery lol.
last  night i was singing the rubber ducky song before i feel asleep.

That's what Cheapjon said... 

[horsey]

yes i know,thank you.

[horsey]

 

omg seemed to fallen off the friggin boat again,im drowning in my sorrows '

[Sin Cut]

Is it helping any?

[horsey]

it's birthday week,mine is tommorow.
sorta celebraten.

[Albert S Miller]

So your saying your birthday is celebrated for the whole week, it is only one day you were born on Horsey, celebration starts tomorrow silly .

[horsey]

me an some friends made up birthday week,coz a friends birthday is tommorow.
so we would party all week it became a tradition lol.
in between work and stuff in the begining now not much of the same party as life goes on.
more like now just rememberin them daze.

[Sin Cut]

I want a birthday week.

Seven days of presents 

[Albert S Miller]

At my age birthdays are great, but it is not about the presents anymore, for me it is about another year of Love, Life, Health and Happiness, and making sure I get on my treadmill religiously, cuz if you don't use it you loose it . 

[horsey]

or you gain a few pounds an dun care lol.

[Butch Français]

aa....hmm...nah
people who are addicted to something because of emotional issues, i can understand it's useful.
to me, i just like having some alcohol or weed and getting more relaxed and being able to enjoy the evening more (tho i enjoy alcohol more).
but i don't believe i have an addiction, since i can go weeks without anything, and then i get into the groove and i have a bit every night for weeks. but i never get wasted on anything, just a slice for the feel of it.
my real problem is that my dayrhythm is fucked up, it's 5am now! gonna go to bed.

[horsey]

i feel as though AA works for some people.
if you finnaly had enough and turn your life over to it.but other then that ,you have to commit to this.an commitment i can't do.

[Albert S Miller]

It is not that you can not commit it is that you won't

I suppose that is easy to say, when you are not the one facing the addiction.  Sorry Horsey  .

[horsey]

im at will not to choose right now.if it grows to a worse problem i will turn my life over to it then.
i haven't been drinking quit as much now,in fact hardly at all.and im doing so without AA.
sometimes sitting in the meetings makes me want to have a drink afterwards.so im doing well without the drama of AA  meetings.

[Sin Cut]

Just wondering, how often ARE you drinking?

[horsey]

Just wondering, how often ARE you drinking?

not much at all really.i bought a case of beer at the begining of the month an haven't bought anymore since.
they are gone now ,figure i need a break anyway.i could buy more but really haven't wanted too.