I'm furious, help appriciated

[Sin Cut]

Really I don't know where to start.

I've been angry before, I've been frustrated and I've done fights but never out of joy of just beating someone. Somewhere along the way I've made my share of enemies and even better I've made more good friends for always being there and never backing one step, even if it should been wise.

All this shit is what I can take, I can take someone threatening my friend with a knife, I can take someone threatening my girl or me since all this is relatively easy to take care of. If I can't handle it by myself I know the numbers to call.

I called my best friend when he was about to kill himself and somehow managed to get him reconsider and he did. It would've been the third or fourth time he'd tried something if he'd go through with his plan. Worst part was when my good friend got addicted to drugs again, but I didn't turn my back and now he's relatively clean again.

My ex-gf has threatened me with a knife and cut herself some afterwards, I got someone there in the middle of the night she could talk to, since I wasn't the right person 'cos our relationship went to an end that night.

My dad's an alcoholic and my stepdad.. let just say I've spent a lot of night clenching the handle of a baseball bat when young, even if things probably weren't as bad as it seemed since hate was clouding my judgement. I did however feel like I was there for my familys protection, and family didn't include my stepdad. After I was thrown out living on the streets I didn't say much to my mom besides if things got out of hand I'll always come to help. My help was never needed and the family left behind did better without me.

Hold on I do have a point.

This all taught me responsibility and if things went bad it stayed that way if I didn't act. And my friends helped me when I thought I hadn't the strength to pull through.

And I know if some idiot is causing my life trouble I know with right friends one can be pretty persuative.

As I said I've made my share of enemies, but now some sorry fuck has found a way getting me ticking and I don't  even got a clue who it is.

My granmother just called hysterical since my dad, the alcoholic, had called her and told he has a very reliable source that I've hit rockbottom and do heavy drugs and that soon I'll lose my appartment and she hers. I had a long talk with her telling things are really good, I got a great job and that I'm clean and that settled her down a bit.

Then I called my dad, and I was pretty amused about the whole deal, asking him what joke this is. My dad starts complaining about the fights I've been to and really there haven't even been many, hey it's only march 

Anyway dad believed his reliable source over my word and to him I do drugs now. This must be the first time I really want to make someone shit blood, even if I doubt I'd go that far, but I'd also be out of control for sure if I see the guy behind these "facts".

What hurts me is that my own dad turned his back on me, even if I forgave him of all those years he's been gone and I really don't need a dad like that. I'll talk to my granmother tomorrow, just to clear things up between us and hopefully I get some clue who's behind this. And then I'll erase my dads number, I managed all these years without him and I really what would I ever need him for?

I know, there sure ain't any magic tricks to sort this but I had to let out some steam.

[Gaymo, the Hobbit]

Always hard giving advice to those kind of things, all i can say is that i feel sorry for all that happened and i hope everything is gonna work out fine. but you shouldn't get yourself into trouble again with whoever started that rumour, cause that might fuck you up even worse....

[avesia]

  man, and I thought I had problems...
I'd say...you don't need to be that mad about this...I know it hurts when your own father treats you like that, but as you said, he is an alchoolic, so he obviously has serious problems himself...just try yo find out who  the "reliable source" is...now, what I don't understand is...did you use to have drug problems? or why is that they are assuming that you are on heavy drugs?
...and I'm pretty sure that you can manage to do it on your own, if your father is not there for you..I think that after some time you'll get over it...
and how about your mother? you haven't mentioned her in your post?

[MR W,AXL ROSE]

go ahead let it out dude.we,re all here for you just like you are to your friends.

sounds to me like there some tosser trying to cause shit for you.have you tryed to talk to your dad and really emphisise that you dont do drugs.when a parent gets info like that,then its hard to dissmiss it even if you tell them its not true,coz thats what you would do if you were doing drugs.de ye get what im sayin.

as for the shit your old fella put you through then goes and lectures you,thats wrong,but i think he really needs you to stand up to him and tell him that its all bullshit.maybe then next time some loser trys to cause you shit,he will think twice about not believing you.

soz if any of that didnt help ?

[Sin Cut]

Always hard giving advice to those kind of things, all i can say is that i feel sorry for all that happened and i hope everything is gonna work out fine. but you shouldn't get yourself into trouble again with whoever started that rumour, cause that might fuck you up even worse....

would you just leave it without doing something about it?

I know I won't, but I'm not planning any drive by or lynching. I just find out who he is, get some compensation and have him go eat his words. But that doesn't really make things go back as to how they were, but I think it would make me feel warm inside.

[Gaymo, the Hobbit]

no i don't think i would leave it like that, you should definetely go and find that prick and talk to him first.
but why would you lose your appartment just because some dickhead is telling lies?

[Sin Cut]

man, and I thought I had problems...
I'd say...you don't need to be that mad about this...I know it hurts when your own father treats you like that, but as you said, he is an alchoolic, so he obviously has serious problems himself...just try yo find out who  the "reliable source" is...now, what I don't understand is...did you use to have drug problems? or why is that they are assuming that you are on heavy drugs?
...and I'm pretty sure that you can manage to do it on your own, if your father is not there for you..I think that after some time you'll get over it...
and how about your mother? you haven't mentioned her in your post?

Well after my mother and father broke up it kinda split the family ties right there, my moms side ain't in contact with his and vice versa. And as to the other question. Some of my friends are still in the hook, some never got on, but I might have had a time earlier in my life when I had more than just a taste, but it didn't grow into appetite.

It think someone might just have summed up me hanging with a certain friends and if they use drugs, I must too. But what kinda a fool spreads lies like this when all he's seen is me having a cup of coffee.

[Sin Cut]

no i don't think i would leave it like that, you should definetely go and find that prick and talk to him first.
but why would you lose your appartment just because some dickhead is telling lies?

well if I would have a drug problem, or even do drugs it would take money and if I'd be real heavy into that I'm sure I couldn't afford to pay for my appartment

[Sin Cut]

go ahead let it out dude.we,re all here for you just like you are to your friends.

sounds to me like there some tosser trying to cause shit for you.have you tryed to talk to your dad and really emphisise that you dont do drugs.when a parent gets info like that,then its hard to dissmiss it even if you tell them its not true,coz thats what you would do if you were doing drugs.de ye get what im sayin.

as for the shit your old fella put you through then goes and lectures you,thats wrong,but i think he really needs you to stand up to him and tell him that its all bullshit.maybe then next time some loser trys to cause you shit,he will think twice about not believing you.

soz if any of that didnt help 

Yeah, I am going to stand up with him and probably cut my family ties for atleast a couple of years, but really I'm worried about my granmother, she's pushing over eighty and I'm worried about her worrying about me.

[avesia]

I think you should get closer to your grandmother, try to talk to her, try to gain her trust...she's the only reliable relative that you have, and as far as I've read, you really care about her. Leave your dad alone, you can manage without him
, concentrate upon yourself. oh, and btw, you just can't help everybody
 now, do you have any idea who the "well intentioned" guy might be? A "friend" of yours, or something?

and it's also very important to talk to people about this, get it off your chest...you must have a closer friend, or something...if not, we ( HTGTH ) are always here    just don't keep this whole shit inside you, it might bring you down, drag you back into drugs, or who knows...It's better to be able to talk about your feelings, fears etc. Although you might think it's bullshit, it helps when you know someone is listening to you and you're not alone... believe me...I've been through this...