Dream job / what you wanted to be when you were a kid

[R4tfink]

Superman.

Nothing has changed either, im 22 and still wouldnt class myself as grown up.
I like being childish.

[MadmanDan]

Ninja or Football player. Oh, and in my early teens I wanted to be a porn star

[Tj]

By about the time i hit 16 i'd given up that dream to to a complete lack of talent.

 

I don't think I remember much before the age of about 10, so I'll start from there...

When I was 10 I wanted to be an electrical engineer, but after a while I found out that it would involve a lot of work and effort, such as going to University, so I abandoned that idea. I think I briefly contemplated becoming a fireman, but I didn't think in much depth about that.

I was pretty aimless until around 14, when I decided I wanted to be a builder, but I was quickly put off that one by my two weeks of work experience on a building site, making me aimless again. I wasn't even planning to go to college, but I did.

As I got closer and closer to a time where there would be pressure on me from certain people (parents...society in general) to get a job, I think I subconsciously rebelled against it all, and made absolutely no effort - as usual - to achieve anything, or find any sort of real focus in my life. Although throughout college I occasionally did things with a view to becoming a tramp one day. For example, I wore the same trousers every day, until they had huge holes and tears in both legs and the rear (my mum put a patch over that particular hole though), and the pockets had been torn out. My mum eventually caught on to the fact I was wearing the same trousers, and began to start asking for them to be put in the wash every weekend. These trousers were fantastic, and whatever image of them you have in your head now...they were probably much more torn than that. I do still have them actually, but last summer I decided enough was enough (read as: my girlfriend at the time made me buy new ones).

So anyway, I walked out of pretty much every one of my A level exams, when it became apparent each time that my fantastically low work ethic and high apathy levels throughout the last two years had rendered me incapable of sufficiently answering any of the questions being asked of me. It was summer, so I had plenty of pleasant and peaceful strolls home, if I ignored the busy traffic and fumes. I fully expected to fail those exams, but somehow I managed to get two Es and one D. Interesting fact: I got a U (fail) in three of the six Media Studies units over the two years, and yet I still managed to pass the subject as a whole, without getting particularly good grades in the other three either - one B and two Cs, I believe. The education system is a joke.

I've done nothing for a year. I was on the dole for a few months, but that was depressing, so I abandoned it. I went to one interview during the time I was claiming, and just lied when I signed on every fortnight. I figured if I was going to continue with my apathy, I may as well do it in an honest fashion, so I stopped signing on - although I lied about my reasons for stopping. I have considered a few options in this year, but mainly I've just sat around and been depressed, for various reasons, although I'm definitely on my way out of that shit now, so maybe I'll find something to do some time soon. These are the three main things I've considered since college:

1. Ski Instructor

Not sure how easy it would be to get work out of the skiing season, but I guess I could just come back to England and work at dry ski slopes, then go back out to Switzerland (or somewhere else with snow and mountains) for the winter. I need more experience on snow before I'm even allowed to have a shot at the base qualification though, so going down this path would be somewhat expensive. I'd get so much enjoyment from it though, but I would perhaps get frustrated by the lack of free time to just go skiing on my own every day instead.

2. Games Tester

I'm not sure how easy it is to find consistently available work in this field, but it would suit me to a tee ? I could just continue being how I am now, except with a little more commitment and effort, and get paid for it. The down side of this is that I would probably slip back into depression, and ex-communicate myself from society even further.

3. Fireman

I think I'm regressing to my earlier childhood. It's possible that in order to do this I may have to learn to drive, so I'm already greatly put off the idea. Then again, I guess being able to drive might be practical for being a Ski Instructor too. To be a fireman, I'd also have to bulk up quite a lot, which I can't see happening ever.

To be honest, I don't want a career right now at all. Maybe I'll just work in a music shop or something. Seems most people are slaves to money and society whether they realise it or not, so I would initially feel uncomfortable with the idea of a proper income, because I know I'd get sucked in like everyone else, get into debt, buy things I can't afford and don't need, and end up feeling very frustrated. Eventually I'll give up trying to escape the trap everyone else has fallen/jumped with intent into, but not quite yet...

[MCT]

Why has your writing quality risen dramatically as of late, Teej?

Of course either way it's nice to see...

[Jessica]

I had almost always wanted to be a singer, with a few add ons.

But then, my mother couldn"t take me anywhere without saying " come on jessie, sing a song for so and so".
I guess it was her way to be proud, but she did kind of disgust me from singing or from feeling i had talent, because i became a sort of talented animal in a family/friends zoo. It would still be this way if i hadn't stopped singing.
I did do an audition last year but failed because i was too old.

The same happened with piano. My mother took lessons and couldn't ameliorate, and her teacher told her i was extremely naturally gifted even though i had tiny hands ( which i still do). she would take me to tea parties and ask my brother to tell jokes ( because he is funny) and ask me to sing or play piano.

So i stopped piano so she'd leave me the fuck alone.

I didn't do this with acting ( and i had quit for 6 years anyway due to men making me come to auditions just to offer work in exchange of a fuck, so i prefered to quit and look at myself with honor)  , because i have a huge  fear, a natural block, so even though i am given roles like blanche ( i fucking HATE tenessee williams) by teachers who think i have what it takes to play her ( thanks to them, she is a fucking nutter, every actress wants her and i would raher go without) , i can't seem to let it out. I freeze in camera auditions and retreat into myself generally.

But i'm not finished and haven't said my last word, next step is a HUGE HUGE work on me with hypnosis, as soon as i have enough money.

I may have lost my chances to have a big career, but i can still have a smaller one and will try.

[SLCPUNK]

I wanted to be a Ghostbuster........

[Tj]

Why has your writing quality risen dramatically as of late, Teej?

Of course either way it's nice to see...

Didn't know it had really. I guess I'm just going through an enthusiastic HTGTH posting phase, so I'm posting longer messages with more thought put into them. On the whole though, taking into account emails, letters etc., it's no different *shrugs* It also helps not feeling so depressed all the time.

But i'm not finished and haven't said my last word, next step is a HUGE HUGE work on me with hypnosis, as soon as i have enough money

You're using hypnosis as a form of 'therapy', or do you mean you're learning how to do it yourself?

[*Izzy*]

Magick rock guitarist

  Izzy?

[MCT]

Why has your writing quality risen dramatically as of late, Teej?

Of course either way it's nice to see...

Didn't know it had really. I guess I'm just going through an enthusiastic HTGTH posting phase, so I'm posting longer messages with more thought put into them. On the whole though, taking into account emails, letters etc., it's no different *shrugs*

Yes well I wouldn't know about the emails and the letters and the etc's. I'm just going by what I've seen on the board lately.

But you know, you can have all the thought in the world put into a missive and produce nothing but doggrel in the end. So I'll say it again - the quality of your writing has risen drastically as of late.

Anyway, semantics perhaps. A tree is a tree. But a tree could also be a carnation pink crayon; that sort of thing.

[Jessica]

You're using hypnosis as a form of 'therapy', or do you mean you're learning how to do it yourself?

I use it as a form of therapy, ideas induced directly to my brain, sort of " reprogramming".

I was already under hypnosis in catharsis therapy with a shrink, it did work well ( thank you axl saying YEARS ago it even existed !!! i was SO uneducated really ).

Soi  can work on 1) gaining confidence in my abilities 2) the " what" terrifies me in a camera 3 ) pushing myself forwards instead of hiding what's good in me

I already did 10 years of therapy, but these 10 years were work on much more important issues, now, whatever time is ahead working on me, it will be to give me a good life, one i like.

The past 10 were to give me a life altogether.

And hypnosis is amazing, it reaches a zone of the brain that can(t be reached otherwise.

[Tj]

Why has your writing quality risen dramatically as of late, Teej?

Of course either way it's nice to see...

Didn't know it had really. I guess I'm just going through an enthusiastic HTGTH posting phase, so I'm posting longer messages with more thought put into them. On the whole though, taking into account emails, letters etc., it's no different *shrugs*

Yes well I wouldn't know about the emails and the letters and the etc's. I'm just going by what I've seen on the board lately.

But you know, you can have all the thought in the world put into a missive and produce nothing but doggrel in the end. So I'll say it again - the quality of your writing has risen drastically as of late.

Anyway, semantics perhaps. A tree is a tree. But a tree could also be a carnation pink crayon; that sort of thing.

Fair enough, Mr MC...as you wish, jellyfish. Ha! I'm gonna use that one again one day...

So what did you want to be, hm?

I don't think I'd ever be up for hypnosis therapy  It just seems a bit too unnatural to me. I don't really like the idea of any sort of professional therapy at all though.

[MCT]

I wanna be a lottery winner.

[Jessica]

I don't think I'd ever be up for hypnosis therapy  It just seems a bit too unnatural to me. I don't really like the idea of any sort of professional therapy at all though.

How come ?

Therapy can be good.

I tried all the freudian shit, with a person sat in front of me with pen and paper going " huh huh" " huh huh" for an hour and ma paying a fortune to speak to myself.

Of course, didn't work.

One day, i found HER. Oh bless. I tried a few.

I was telling a part of my story for the xxx time, and there was an echo, it wasn't my own voice, it was hers, there was a real communication there  ? On top of being a proper doctor, she knew how to hypnose people medically and worked with kids and people who had experimented paranormal also.

an angel..

And hypnosis isn't unnatural, it's a bit like a transe, the way to go into it are very transe like anyway. And you do know many cultures in the world use transes. There isn't anything more natural. But in our white controlled society, people fear it because they fear it could give people power over their intimacy.

To be honest, i never had any, not physical, nor mental.

So there was nothing she could steal from me, it had been stolen long ago. I had nothing to lose.

[darkmonth]

game designer. and thats what i am now

ok, i also wanted to be UN general secretary or a hitman

Game artist   And that's what I am now

[kiss-from-a-rose]

a FISH.

 

[mikegiuliana]

fireman when i was young... i think i thought the village people were cool as a kid,  As a teen I wanted to be porn star,..

[MikeB]

As a kid I was obsessed with guns and movies like The Terminator,Die Hard,Lethal Weapon and the game Resident Evil.I wanted to become a cop.When I was 6 , I lied to all of the kids in my class that Arnold Schwarzenneger was my dad and I helped him kill bad guys.

[Gunna_girl01]

As a kid I was obsessed with guns and movies like The Terminator,Die Hard,Lethal Weapon and the game Resident Evil.I wanted to become a cop.When I was 6 , I lied to all of the kids in my class that Arnold Schwarzenneger was my dad and I helped him kill bad guys.

OMG that is SO cute 

[Gunna_girl01]

judy out of the jetsons!!!

they rock

[D]

Musician and I am