Here Today... Gone To Hell!

I think we should have a thread where we tell each other how we feel and act as if we really care...like group therapy for free 'cause professionals suck at their jobs and don't know shit except money and textbook solutions where one size fits all and no size fits anybody.

Do you really want people to know your problems?

Judging from the threads you've started lately it seems you are having quite a few personal demons to release. I've had demons for years now and they still don't give up completely.

i reckon its probably a good idea
most of us in here are pretty messed up anyway, and this way if we say something we regret we can delete our profile and start again under the guise of a spanish pancake maker.
right i'll get started then
i can't be bothered with college anymore, and i know that if i stop i'll get chucked out and face some major resentment from my parents.
ergh

shlump

but we don't care!  :P just kidding. erm, i'm not sure if this thread will get off the ground but it might be a good idea. don't expect to hear many of my problems though.

No, like people's feelings.  Like happy,sad, mad, glad, blah, blah blah.  Did you guys really expect me to give a fuck about you or your problems [rofl]?  I don't even give a fuck about mine, and that is probably why I have so many, but I digress 'cause I feel like it.  Just like vent dudes.  Get it all off your chest, pull it out of your ass, I don't really care ::) [ok]

Okay I feel weird ;D

Okay then. Well, right now I feel ambivalent. Mostly because I'm cooking dinner at the moment and dinner's roast beef with yorkshire puds. Now I normally love roast beef with yorkshire puds  [drooling] (also scalloped potatoes and asparagus are on the menu tonight) but I feel a little ambivalent/slightly nervous/confused about it because they found a mad cow in the province next to mine and there's a couple of farms near my house that have been quarantined.  [nervous] I dunno what to think anymore.  [confused] I love meat,  [drooling] there's no way I could give it up, but all this mad cow business is making me nervous.

So that's what I'm feeling right now.  [peace]

I don't like people.

I don't understand this "friendship" stuff.  I don't think I ever had a friend nor do I want any.  If someone is nice to me it seems it's always because I have something they want.  It's always about what I can do for them.

The people I work with all hate me because I've been doing this job a long time so I know alot more stuff than they do and so the higher-ups will always come to me first.  And because of my job I have alot of "connections" so I think they're jealous of that, too.  There's only a few of them that actually talk to me but it's only find out work stuff to make themselves look good or to try and find out my personal business.

But people always talk about me (in a good way) to other people like I have the most fascinating life in the world......and believe me, I don't.  Then they'll come up to me the next day and tell me how they were talking about me.   I never get invited anywhere but I'm the topic of their conversations.  What's up with that?

The only reason my married 'boyfriend' is with me is for the sex.....we have nothing else in common.  I know he would never be there for me if I needed anything.  And I can't call him up just to talk or anything because he has a wife and a whole life with her.  But I think the real reason I'm with him is because I don't want to be committed to anyone and since he's already committed to someone else - he's safe (if you know what I mean).

That's it.  That's how I feel.

ambivalent! that's my favourite word  [ok] i created a new AIM screen name, y'see. it's 'maybe ambivalent'. i was quite proud of myself for that. that's how i feel right now, errr proud.

what? no roast tatoes? :-[

That's bad ... do you like something? Maybe dogs or cats?


You don't want any friends? I'm sorry, but I can't understand that. I realise that it feels pretty bad to realise someone's just being nice to you to get something from you, believe me, I know how that feels. But, don't you wish you had someone to tell all this to? I mean, us posters know you but not as well as a good friend would ... You should consider online friends ... This doesn't mean you have to be online a lot ... just meet up, talk a bit and stuff. And online friends rarely 'want' anything from you. The only reason I'm telling you this is because I've been really lucky with online friends (all of whom are or were on this Board) MCT, DTH, AG, Skeba, Jarmo ... of course (I hope you don't feel bad guys) one of my BEST friends .. Michele (misCHieF)

(BTW, if you want ... I'm always there ... )


You should treat your work 'friends' as merely acquaintances. Share a joke, lunch or something, but remember to keep them at arms length.. that way, they can never reach out to hug you, and end up stabbing you in the back.


I've never been in this situation. People always talk crap about me when I'm not around. And they usually tell me about it when they meet me ... that's probably why I've never actually wanted to witness one of these conversations...


I think if it's just sex between you two ... you should try meeting other guys. If you're not ready for anything serious by the time they are, you can tell them the truth, either they'll wait patiently (which will tell you a lot), or they'll walk out (in which case, you'll be better off ..). Either way, you'll end up on the winning side.

This is hardly a completely thought out response to your problem, it's only as much as I can garner right now. Talk to your new online friend about it. I'm sure he/she will be willing to help you out.

I feel...tired.

As well as this, I also don't like people.

I don't like the people I see when I turn on my TV.  Those detail-less, camera-friendly people, who care only about what sells, and change their acts accordingly to suit whatever's in.  Make up only reduces beauty, and covers up the things people should be most proud of.  Every day I see them, and it makes me sick.

I don't like the people I see when I go to school.  The little shits who wouldn't be such rude, homophobic wankers if they would just experiment with smiling once in a while.  The horrible people who can't accept the idea of being nice to others, for reasons that I will never understand.

I also don't like people who don't think for themselves.  We are told a lot of things, by the government and the media and our parents, and I do not like the people who take all of this at face value.  People should be smart enough to form their own views, opinions and values, instead of having someone else tell them what to think.

I don't like people who don't appreciate art, or don't care about it.  The type of people who say "oh I don't like Blur's new song, because it's mellow".  There is so much beauty in this world that people could just unlock if they could only be bothered to put a bit of thought into it.

Finally, I don't like...George Bush.

Encore.

Thank you, WagMyDog, for taking the time to analyze my situation and especially for your offer to be my "online" friend.  :-*
If you ever need a kidney, you can have one of mine!  [ok]

Danny Top Hat:  I agree with everything you said...except I like 'Dubya'  :P
I already promised WMD my kidney, but if you need a blood transfusion, I'm here for you.


I think the concept of "friends" is just a matter of individual perspective.  For example, WMD seems to feel that me not having or wanting friends is a "problem".......(okay, okay - WMD, my shrink, my family and the rest of the world thinks I have a problelm)....... But I don't think so.

Also, I couldn't care less about dogs&cats but I hate it when people treat them better than they treat other people.

The people I work with ARE to me only acquaintances.  When they take the credit for work that I did or don't include me in their 'fun time', instead of letting that eat me up inside like it used to, I now look at it as a compliment to all that I am able to accomplish in my worklife.  If people don't like me because I'm good at what I do or because I take pride in my work, well, that's their problem and not mine.

About people talking good about me when I'm not there.......I think it would be nice to actually hear it myself.  These same people have no problem talking crap about me to my face.

As for talking online.......I have had alot of fun here & at the Gilby Forum.  I enjoy discussing stuff & FIGHTING with people, too.  But to me, you are all like the voices in my head.......I can't see you, so are you really real???

And honestly (para-phrasing my favorite rock star):  If you got to know me, you'd probably hate my fuckin' guts!

I feel...violated [crying]

Don't ever give out yourself if another person isn't willing to give back any of themselves in return :'(

I want to play with boys...but you suck >:(  [rant] >:(

We're real.  And if you're A- blood type, I'd donate some for you.  I really, really doubt we'd hate you if we got to know you though.  Well, I wouldn't be too happy if you tried to throw me in a sack and into the river... ;)  You're ok Gypsy!

I feel tired.  I need to go to bed, but don't want to.  I also feel stupid, cause I know that tomorrow will be hell because I won't go to bed.   And it will be no one's fault but my own.:-[

I think everyone needs someone to unload on.  Friends do have a tendency to come and go.  Lives change.  Someone gets married, has kids, moves...  At the moment, I have one good friend that I share "most" everything with.  It's good.  We both tell each other things that we would be embarassed telling anyone else.  We joke that we'll have to stay friends for life because we both know too much shit about the other one.  I know one thing, I'd hate to have her turn on me!   [nervous]

Gypsy-  are you close to your family?  In times where I haven't had a close friend to talk to, my mom was a lifesaver!  I don't think that not having a friend is a problem as long as you have someone to share the heavy stuff with.  You like quotes, what about "No man is an island?"  

Heh.  WMD stands for 'WagMyDog' and 'Weapons of Mass Destruction'.

Coincidence?

I'm old.  Very, Very OLD!!!
And my life philosophy is:  People are scum.  Never count on anyone but yourself.
If someone else does something good to/for/with you - you're ahead of the game.
If they don't - you're not disappointed.
One of my older brothers taught me that philosophy.  It took me a long time - and alot of pain - but I finally learned that lesson.  

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Oh yeah, right, your all really real.  And there's a Finnish farmer, living in Sweden, who can speak Dutch!  [hihi]
[no] B+
[yes] Yes, you would!!!  I'm real annoying!!!
I would never ever do something like that to you!  :P
Well, not since you said you would make me a LimpBiskitSexSlave if I did.  [nervous]

hmm...on the whole friends issue. i have...3, maybe 4, friends (excluding those online) who i really cherish, and i just tolerate everybody else. i'm a really cynical, critical bastard. all the friends i cherish are males (which i'm sure won't come as any surprise to you, gypsy). shlump, john, james, and maybe steve. i'm not sure about steve.

edit: oh, and there was heidi, who i remember shlump and i both said we truly liked, one night when we were out walking with john. i used to love her, but i had to kill her.

@ Gypsy

You're welcome.

Kidney huh? That's really sweet... Thank You.

BTW, I think I'm B+ .... *hint hint*

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@ Hippie

WTF?

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@ DTH ... I just made it look like a coincidence ...

Look at all the damage I'm doing in the riddle thread..

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@ tim ... You sound like a sick fuck ... how come you're not joining us in the riddle thread?

My blood is your blood......anytime  :-*

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Now I feel ....... sad  :'(  because I feel that I hurt your feelings by what I said  :'(

 [crying] I'm sorry if I made you feel bad, tim  [crying]
 
I just want you to be feel good about being yourself and not worry about what other people think!  [love]

Wow .. that's even better than a Kidney!

I'm .... I don't kn... . I can't tell you ... aww fuck it!  

:-*

don't know any baby jokes!

That's no excuse .. go get some!

aaawwww, i feel all special now  [yes]
i cherish you too man!!!  [crying]
yeah, heidi got in the way a bit so we had to brutally murder her and then cover up all traces of it so that no-one will ever work out it was actually us, HAH!!!

shlump

or some irish jokes cos they're always funny
unless they're crap cos then most of the time they aren't funny
some are sort of inbetween and slightly humourus
oh well

shlump

hmm do you still like heidi? she's such a sad little creature. for those of you who don't know, heidi ran away to gretna green and got married  [hihi] i think that being dumped by me was just so traumatic for her that she needed to do something drastic.

I agree with Danny's comments, even though he did leave out people who cannot spell, or wave their right to spell by using txt spk.

Some things in life I wish I could change (apart from the obvious, war, poverty, ect):-

I hate seeing people fight, it's an awful thing that rarely needs to happen. This is most annoying in pubs and clubs. My favourite thing is having a drink with friends down the local, and it just fries my head when people start throwing punches when we're trying to enjoy ourselves and catch up. If you need violence in your life, take up boxing. Or take an E before coming out.

The way I treat the ladies is somewhat terrible, but I get treated the same so......

The fact that barely anyone likes the music, or has the same devotion to music in N. Ireland runs me up the wrong way. This is a fault of mine as I do feel very strongly that the music mainstream is destroying countless genres (not just the ones I like) of music by force feeding the masses extreme amounts of tripe. But it's not all bad, I still have my punk n' roll.

Dog Toffee should be knighted.

I could go on all night, but I don't wanna bore you all....oh, wait..

Eh I feel...somewhat depressed. It's almost like a constant thing. I mean I can have a good time and everything, but when my mind isnt on something, it goes directly back to the way it was. It's because of the typical love crap, thats for sure. I feel somewhat retarded posting it here but at least its off my chest. Theres just a girl, and she's really really really really great, etc. Im sure you all know the story. I mean we're really close friends, i can talk with her about everything, maybe thats part of the attraction. I've done all those sappy things, like write songs about her and stuff, just because thats about all i can think about when i wanna write something.  But i'd never be able to tell her that. So i guess she's sort of the inspiration for a lot of stuff i write. We have so damn much in common, everything clicks. She's also got a really beautiful singing voice, i could listen all day :-\ sappy sappy sappy. Anyways, theres always the catch, which is her boyfriend. I have a weird kind of friendship with him. It's more or less, he knows how close we are, and i know their status, so we dont ruffle eachothers feathers just because we don't wanna ruin what we have with her or something. We're friendly and stuff to eachother, but I just always get that vibe. But what pisses me off most is he just really doesnt fuckin pay attention to her, he hangs out with his other friends and other women more than her, and yet she is so damn infatuated with him, if thats the right word. I dont know, maybe she sees something else but i know what i see, and its depressing. maybe im just being stupid, but hey the thread said to post how you feel  ;D Woo, im done.

lonely

...alone

Stressed.
Exactly 1 week and 3 hours from this very moment and I will fail.
I should bestudying, not wasting my life in the net.Fuck.

i get depressed because i have nothing interesting to be depressed about. just the same old, boring stuff.
also, the other day i realised i'm kind of scared of not being scared, does that make sense? i hope so. i don't know of anything worldly that scares me, except the feeling of not being fearful.
aand another thing, i get worried because of the lack of worry and general concern i have for my life. i know all this is getting quite confusing but bear with me. for example, these A/s level exams, i don't revise in the slightest and i don't feel at all nervous or irritable about them on the day, then i realise that they're not having an effect on me and i start to wonder why. i really fucked up my second english literature exam, wrote 'i give up' on the paper and walked out half an hour early. walked out half an hour early from the second english language one as well. that's not me, i should be getting good grades but i know i won't. i'm not too sure if i'm bothered or not  :-\
well, that was a piece of my heart, do with it what you wish.

...Like hugging Chris.

life is good
everything seems to be going well for me at the moment
the weather is great at the moment, i just got back from going round my girlfriends, i then had a bag of chips and a battered sausage so i'm pretty satisfied with myself, then later on i'm gonna go kickboxing which i really enjoy doing.
i'm young
i'm healthy
i'm happy
life is good

shlump

dead. I think I died yesterday. But I'm not sure.

how did you die?

I feel yummilicous, 'cause I smell good :D.  I'm happy, even though I'm sad, but then I'm still happy, which is weird.  I have this whole "life sucks, let's be happy," vibe going on right now. Feeling really lovey dovey and all warm and goey on the inside ;D.

happy being sad  :( :)

estranged from the reality, from this game we call life.

listening to breakdown.









at least I left her with a smile on her face..  :P

i give to you tim aka comedy and tragedy

shlump

I thought about your question, and went back and thought it over ...

I realised I hadn't been living all along ... I don't think I was born, so technically, I didn't die. I just wasn't born .. still am not. I think I'm still waging a war in my head about who'll take control when my life begins ...

I'm unborn.

How is it in there?  [hihi]

In my head? (Cos, that's where I've still got to be born...)

Like I've rented it out one time too many ... Got to start charging more for people to rent out space in my head... Plus, I've got to kick them free-loaders out ..

I feel extremely annoyed, for a variety of reasons, but mostly because my life is full of boring bullshit administrative detail at the moment:
-renewing car insurance--I have to prove I've been a good driver since I got my driver's license 13 years ago--we're talkin' going way back to my days living on the other side of the continent, so I've got to beg and plead for paperwork from bureaucratic asses on the other side of the country [confused]. The car dealership can't figure out how to fix the squeaky belt in my car's engine and the warrantee expires in two weeks. Morons.  >:(
-work bullshit--being annoyed for crap that was finished and done and over with a year ago  [rant] and having to work with someone I dislike and don't trust. Being either up to my tits in work or having nothing to do--no happy medium.  [no]
-never seeing my husband because he's so busy with work (he's gone 7am to 9pm everyday, several times on weekends too). Yes, we live together, but that's about all there is to it now. He's a roommate I live with now. What happened to all the romance? All the spending time together and talking?  [crying] I've realized I could never have a kid with him--the kid would never see his father and I'd pretty much have to raise the kid myself.  :-\  

Meh, fuck it, time for some red wine.  [hihi]

 [crying] I feel like I'm from a broken home and I didn't even get there yet!  [crying]

There are ways to bring back the romance with someone who works long hours and I'm sure comes home tired and cranky.  In two words:  "Erotic Massage"  [ok]

...like this thread has gone on way too long for it's own good.

http://holliday.fun.ms/

http://holliday.fun.ms/

I feel.......I need to post something here!!!

...like you're wrong, very wrong.

I feel like NOT letting that damn spammer fuck with this (or any) thread!!!

electra, how are you feeling?  Are things any better at home?

I feel...happy.  :)

I love summer!!! It?s 9.55 pm in here and i can still see the sunset!

slightly nervous
i've got an essay which i havent even started due in tomorow, and i honestly dont care if i pass or fail.
and i've got a kickboxing exam tomorow night after work which i'm more worried about than college in general
but i'm also pretty happy because i go on holiday to greece on thursday

shlump

indifferent to the fact that I have my exam in two days. Kinnda worries me or not..

...cold and lonely   ::) :(

bloody boiling, depressed, tired, head hurts

I'm feeling better, Gypsy, thanks.  :) My husband and I have planned a two-and-a-half week trip to France at the end of June/beginning of July, so he wrote me an email the other day (yes, we email each other more often these days than actually speak face-to-face) saying "we'll be able to spend time together and talk when we're in France."   :P I just get frustrated and lonely at times because our work schedules conflict so much. But I feel better now because I think things will be fine, we've been through rough patches before, so we'll get through this too.  :)

shut out [crying]

I feel sad  :'( that axlsgrrrl feels cold and lonely  :(
I feel sad  :'( that Hippiechick feels shut out  :(
I feel bad that I'm helpless to do anything to help them feel better  :'(


I feel glad that electra is feeling better  :)
I feel that electra & he husband are NOT planning on taking me to France with them  :P
 

i feel...um...dunno, i hate college so much.

I feel horny!  [hihi] lets go girls!  [beer] [rofl]

lol *hits jim round the head* get a hold of yourself, man! actually...perhaps you'd better not  [hihi]

18 - 28 years old women wouldnt mind shagging wow this post was pointless, ahahha cause I want 400!

400 women?

Wouldnt mind that! Nope 400 hundred posts, but looks like I dont get a fourth star yet so Im mad!

try 500?

once again life is good, i got that essay out of the way in a couple of hours
i dont have to get up early tomorow morning, or wednesday morning actually.
i'm going to greece on thursday, (should get some batteries for my discman)
i'm seeing my girlfriend tomorow, great
i just passed my first kickboxing exam which was quite possibly the easiest thing i've done in ages.
i'm young
i'm healthy
i'm happy
life is good  ;D ;D ;D

shlump

Shallow and relieved and bored.  I wanna have fun :D...but there's nothing to do :'(

I think we should have a party ;D

That and I like wrote a shitload of stuff today 'cause all this built up aggression and pain just came pouring out and I feel drained now.  I also feel friendless and lonely and hormonal.  I've been going through a lot of mood swings lately.  Like anger, rage, happiness, sever sadness, depression, boredom, and bouts of uncontrolable laughter.  Like I'll just laughing out of the blue at nothing.

I also have senioritis really bad and don't feel like doing any more work.  I just want to fuck everything off and be lazy.

It's like I'm in a hole, all alone, by myself, and it's dark and warm and comforting, but lonely.

I would interract with people but I just don't get anything out of it and I feel the friendship think is a waste 'cause honesty is a crock of shit, and for some strange reason I want to give myself out, but don't want to at the same time, 'cause I know in doing that I won't get anything back and that makes me selfish.

I feel weird.

Like, I wrote an Axl epic today, well two..cause it just sucked that much.  How come you can keep on dragging yourself under and then get back up again to only repeat the same vicous cycle all over again.  It doesn't end, it continues and you can't stop it and I want to break it but it is uncontrolable, like me, and then I wonder if it is myself, and if I do have control over it but just won't allow myself to be in a position of power and have tyranny over fuckers who deserve to be taken down.  I feel like Martha Stewart in prison.  It could be a good thing, but it isn't a good thing.

I want ice cream.  Ice cream is happy

 [help]

Yeah, I know how that feels.  :-\

....betrayed by who I thought was a friend!

I know how it feels to trust someone and then that someone stabs you in the back.

IT FEELS REALLY SHITTY!!!

And when it's someone that you felt close to, like they're family, it's even worse  :'(

(http://www.glasswings.com.au/giggle/dux/icecream.gif)

best i can do at the moment  :)

shlump

isn't he great, hippie?!  :D

I feel so very tired.  It was the first day back after X-mas.  I only got 2 hours of sleep lastnight and have now started the week off wrong.  Why do I always do this?  Is it denial of having to go back to work...not wanting the holiday to end?

Oh well, other than that life is about the same.  Could be a hell of a lot worse but it could be better.  

  ;D

I feel anxious.  I mailed a resume to a company I wanna work for, but it's going to take them four weeks to respond to me.  
I guess I'll survive though.

Good luck!

I have that ahead of me when school ends (again).

Some of the people working in the human resources field amaze me, and not in a good way....  :nervous:


/jarmo

Thank you for your support Jarmo, and good luck to you too!

That was a description of every girl I've ever dated.

i feel quite happy... everyone has problems that need to be delt with... but right now... everythin seems to be going pretty ok with me! so im happy... my friends are good... me and my bf are great! my 6 weeks off school are awsome! So cheer up everyone! you only live once!

What i am mad about tho is that i broke my wrist and dislocated my shoulder snowboarding which prevents me from playin hockey and snowboarding! *sigh*

Terrible, been struck down with a migrane all day.....
 :crying:

Me too.. and it's just been getting worse and worse as the day goes on.  It's like a hangover coming FOR NO GOOD REASON.  Godamnit.  If any of my posts are incoherent today, it's because I can't even fucking concentrate long enough to write a full sentence. :drool:

It's 1:15pm on a Friday and I'm stuck in school......

Damn project.  :nervous:




/jarmo

....like I'm being attacked by a lynch mob.... :nervous:

Hey I didn't know you'd gone back to school, what are you doing this time round?  Did you give up on engineering?

No I didn't, robotics.....

I figured it's too early to be bored with engineering since I haven't even worked as an engineer yet.  :confused:



/jarmo

Coolness.  I'll be doing some robotics at Uni (will be doing an electronic engineering course) provided I don't fail all my exams before I get there...it looks really interesting...I hope it's going well! :beer:

I feel like crap.  The company I applied to rejected me.  They said I didn't meet their current needs.
Oh well, maybe it's their loss.  There's other jobs to be had.

There's probably no one that meets all of their needs. They usually want 25 year olds with 5 years of experience and a diploma from the university.  :hihi:



/jarmo

Yeah, you're right.  That's how most companies are these days.

I feel great!  I have a long weekend because of MLK holiday.  Yipee!  

Now, if I would only use the extra time wisely.   :-\

hehe...so i stole it from newgnr.com
but its a great thread
jus post anything and everything
from ur feelings n emotions to who u fucked to what pisses you off,turn you on...basically anything

I'll tell you what pisses me off  :rant:

Newspapers and magazines so easily print false information and sometimes even total bullshit but when asked to correct it you have to wait days, I tell ya, DAYS.

I've been waiting for a correction for quite a while now but this bitch doesn't seem to get a hint.

All she has to do is write a little fucking note but nooooooo! Why bother?

Well guess what? She will, she so will, be bombarded with emails from yours truly until she changes the damn information!  :rant:

So that's all.

Oh and..... um.....nevermind.

What pisses me off: This shit ass good for NOTHING thread.

Love these threads, they are cute :'>

Fuck all those reality tv shows  : ok:

I'm counting the seconds till this thread is locked.....

**Kicks Izzy in the face**

Uniboy! Im after you!

Do you actually do any work????

I feel like this thread is similar to the "I feel...." thread.



/jarmo

I'll have u know that......no wait, yeah that statements about true....

Its not my fault i have 1 hr a week.....muahahahhaha

Anyway

I feel like asking Jarmo how he can always find the thread every other thread is similiar to and merge them...how does he do it?

When ever i hunt for a thread i never find it....and that 'search' option continues to fail me :crying:

I cant use it either...you have to be half intelligent to use it i think!

Why the fuck are you at UNI?

What are you studying? Lazyness?

There's nothing more they can teach me about that.... :peace: :hihi:

I'm doing a BA in History....apparently, all that means is i pay several grand a year to have someone give me an essay question every two months and point me in the direction of the library......

I'm currently studying (all at once)

Medieval religion

Vampires in Africa

Escalation of the Vietnam War & the military history of the war
                           &
World War Two

To be fair i will have to go to campus three times this week...yes THREE times, and in total will have had 4 hrs of lectures, to compensate they have given me all of next week off  :beer:

Ah uni..........

I hate you!

hey theyr nothing similar :rant:
i want my thread back :'(

I've established this obvious parody of the "Feel Good, Good News" {I think that's it} threads that you see on many boards and I believe on this one.


If you have ANYTHING at all you'd like to talk about... not just good news, come here. I'm willing to talk about anything that's generating emotion in your life.... Not just the good. If you feel miserable, joyous, lonely, triumphant, anything, come here with it.

I'll start as an example of the thread for all of you.
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I went to a Rutgers College Basketball game tonight and I had a very good time. They Beat Saint Mary's 66-58.

Although, the score looks like a confortable lead, St. Mary's was really holding their own with Rutgers until the end of the game. That made me nervous and made it even sweeter when we won.

I went with my father, his two brothers, and my friend GNR-Rules from the board.? A fun time was had by all especially with my older uncle's UN-PC comments in the car ride to the game.

Hopefully, basketball doesn't disapoint like the football team and make the NCAA's this year. Here's hoping.? :beer:

P.S. It's definately not limited to sports BTW. It is ANYTHING that happens.

i watched my home team kentucky wildcats blow another fuckin win as they blew the game against tennesee today, after the unbelievable hail mary loss to LSU a couple years ago i am now numbed to these losses, i knew it was gonna happen today before it even did.

on my NBA 2K5 game on xbox live i am ranked 540 in the world, i am 39-11 and i played a guy ranked 320th.

he led me the whole game as much as 15 points but i fought back and i had a 1 point lead with 20 seconds to go. he fouls me and all i gotta do is hit both free throws and then i can foul him and basically trade freethrows and win the game.

well i choked and only made one free throw, he ties the game, i hold for the final shot i have a clear lane to the basket but out of nowhere he blocks my shot, calls timeout with 4 seconds to go, inbounds the ball passes to Tracy Mcgrady and hits a shot over Ron Artest for the game winner, i am pissed at this loss! just as if it were a real game!

I'm totally depressed.

It's a time in the year when i am down like never.

First of all, because 12 years ago at xmas, i should have had a little boy. By now, i'd have a 12 year old son and i can't face xmas. it's the same every year.

Also, it's cold now. I see all these men and women outside, in sleeping bags, with their doggies to keep them company, not wanting to sleep in associative places because they are more dangerous than the streets. I gave a sleeping bag to a man the other day and he looked at me like i was some kind of messiah. He made me cry, especially because to me, it was " just" a sleeping bag.

Also, because some children will not have a xmas or xmas presies. Medias make it worse, it's this whole commercial thing. But ti's awful to be waking up feeling that life is not on your side. It's too young to feel that way.

I could go on and on and on, i know problems are there all year around, but somehow, being near xmas makes it worse. It's like, medias portray everyone so happy and in fact, there is so much sadness. This gap is so immense between illusion and reality.

I realise that although i am lucky, others aren't, and therefore, i can't be happy.

Liverpool beat Arsenal 2-1!!!!!!!

Somewhere between shocked and absolutely thrilled - scored with the last kick of the ball, after those wretched lot had managed to get an equaliser, hurrah!

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that makes up for the loses to the aussies in rugby.

England just lost by 2 points, and had Jonny been in the team, they would have surely won.

The thrashing recieved from the aussies in league however was too much. Given time, Britian would surely win the next world cup.

Still, despite Liverpools shock win, mid-table is most likely. No more Europe next year...which could be a good thing.

im gettin frustrated cause i have some kick ass music but i cant write the lyrics for some reason! its getting aggravating, usually i am very prolific with lyrics but this one is givin me problems.

Recently, my cat hasn't been acting like herself. She was laying on her bed all day, she wasn't drinking water, and she was having trouble going to the bathroom. So on Friday I took her to an emergency vet since all the normal vet offices were closed due to the holiday. The vet diagnosed her with a urinary infection, which was a relief because it's not that big of a deal. I was expecting worse such as kidney disease. Then comes the bad news. She told me she felt a mass in my cat's stomache when she examined her. She was afraid it was an enlarged liver or spleen. So she told me she wanted to run some tests, which would have set me back $450, which I really didn't have. Of course, I told her to do them anyway.

The tests however, didn't get us much further than when we started. Her blood was normal, but the mass could be seen on the x-rays. Unfortunately, we still don't know what it is. All the tests showed was that it wasn't an elarged liver or spleen. She just said it could be a tumor on her spleen, but that is extremely rare it cats. Sadly, it's also fatal.  So now I have to take her in to see a specialist which will probably set me back a lot more money. He is going to perform an ultrasound which will cost $275. I'm assuming he will have to run more tests to find out what it actually is, because I think all an ultrasound does is allow you to get a better view than an x-ray.

It's a really stressful time for me. I love my cat and would do anything for her, but it really sucks having to go into debt. It's bad enough worrying about her health. It's extra awful worrying about money. Now I don't have any money to finish Christmas shopping.

I just want my cat to be ok. :( I had her since I was 12 years old. That's 11 1/2 years so far. I practically grew up with her. I raised her from a 6 week old kitten. I don't know how I will handle it if I get bad news. It's unbearable to even think about.

I'm just trying to be positive. She seems perfectly normal ever since she went on her medication for the urinary infection. So I'm hoping it's nothing serious.

I've been working my ass of lately and am soooo close to getting started doing what I want to do. It is exciting and exhausting at the same time.

I finally got two days off in a row, which I need because I had a cold.

I refuse to rotate my tires even though I am a nut about maintaining my car. Don't know why.

My dogs are awesome as always.

My house in SLC is rented and the people have been problem free so far (touch wood) always paying on time.

It is good to see my old friends. I forget how much I missed them.

I am sad for my best friend who seems hopelessly depressed. His perception of life is horrible but he won't listen to me. It's amazing how much better his life would be if he just changed his outlook. He refuses, and I can't stand to be around him. I haven't called him for two weeks because of this. I miss him, but the old him. If I call him now it's just doom and gloom. I can't figure out how to help the guy.

Other than that....

Life is pretty darn good right now.

I am grateful for all of it, as always.

Honor and Power...

this is just a random rant...I apologize, it's not well written, but I had to write something...my blood was boiling last nite...

I was watching the news, and they were talking and showing clips regarding bush's visit to Canada. His smug, im better then you attitude - typical American, fuck I'd like to shake the shit out of that guy. You Americans think the world is your oyster, and that you can do as you please, that your shit doesn't stink, and your better then everyone else in this world... It's pretty amazing how ingnorant one country can be...

does everyone here know what the Victoria Cross is? the medal of honor only given out to someone who shows extreme acts of bravery - and this is reality, not a fuckn movie - real men and woman have received this very real honor, under very real circumstances. just over 1000 of them have ever been handed out since it became, and just over 900 of them, have gone to Canadians.

lets talk about weapons. its my personal opinion that weapons are for cowards, people who know that they can't win a real fight. im talking about gang members, people who cause violent crimes with weapons. and if we look at a larger scale of it, and break it down into countries, what country has the most weapons? I think we all know - can you say scared? cowardly?  I can. and now - they want to put missiles in space...wow...can't get much more scared then that...

back to the news... they decided to show how the Americans were covering bush's visit to Canada. real professional. some guy in a pokadot bow tie was going on about how we are all dog sledding, meanwhile, the Canadian woman they were talking to was trying to talk about real issues, but no, not for the American, he wanted to be a comedian..well, he was off to a good start with the red pokadot bow tie. it resembled talking to a 9 yr old brat. and then you turn around and wonder why people hate you, why people bomb you, and why people don't care when they do. one jackass was asking if we Canadians were scared of bush, cause he's got the bombs, and he mite invade us...lmfao....do it...doo it pleeease. I would join that fight, that would be something worth dieing for. but they never will, either because they remember what happened last time way back when they tried to invade Canada, they got their asses booted out, that's right, lost, the one war that Canada and the US had, Canada won. and if that's not the reason, then it could be because they know that they would be asking for a world war - with every other country fighting with Canada. and has anyone noticed that the US really likes to use the word "invade"..?

so who really is the most powerful nation? would it be the scared country with all their guns and weapons?? or would it be the one that doesn't need it, cause it would be backed by every other nation because of the respect that people have for it, if someone was to...how do you Americans say..invade it..? I think honor and doing what's right, is way more powerful then all your fucking bombs any day.

"USA!, USA!, USA!..." it sounds and looks a little German, don't ya think?

and I KNOW that not ALL Americans are like this...but the majority rules. and IM NOT anti-American, im anti-bullshit. and right now, the united states of American is ripe with it.

fuckn sick and tired...

today im feelin very lonely :'( :'(

if it wasnt for the US u would speak french and have the queen on your money, oh wait..... :hihi:

weapons are totally for pussies, they should take all the weapons away from our troops and we shoot fight the wars bare fuckin handed ::)

u really think canada could take the US?  this isnt hockey, im not a big gung ho patriotic person but your comments were totally stereotypical and untrue for the most part, the majority of americans arent that way and not to sound smug but canada is safe because it shares a continent with the US.  Like it or not the United States is the most powerful nation in the world

Europe didnt like it when Reagan conquered the soviets and didnt like when the berlin wall came down but i think everyone will agree the world is better off now just like 20 years from now the world will be better off with a free Iraq. Canada is respeted because u guys are part american,part British and part French, are u sure there arent a few Italians,Greeks and Russians in there somewhere?

Last night on my way home from work I got pulled over for speeding. The bad thing is I didn't have my driver license, because I was in a hurry to get to work on time and I forgot my purse.? The police officer told me that he was required to take me to jail for driving without a license. This was my response > :nervous:.? But, he told me not to worry, that he wouldn't take me to jail. He just wrote me a ticket and told me to slow down. This is my first speeding ticket.? :(? And, this morning after I cashed my paycheck, I was low on gas. And,?I ran out of gas on my way to get gas.? :P? There I was stranded in the middle of the highway during lunch time traffic.? So, I have to get out of my car and run across the busy highway to use the phone at the nearby McDonalds to call for help, because I'm like the only person on the planet without a cell phone.

i feel like i can't live in this world...

I feel... like resurrecting this thread.

And I feel like...hippiechick was cool to have around. Where did she go?? ???

I also feel tired, lonely, rejected, pessimistic, empty, let down, and my back hurts from leaning forward to type *sigh*

I feel alright.

Where's my cd......

I still feel as good, pretty much, but my cd, where is it?

Why?

I felt like merging two threads that were similar.





/jarmo

I feel like a virgin, touched for the very 1st time ;D ;D

...PISSED OFF, spent 9 hours writing an essay and managed just 200 words of which even those i think are rubbish......i....don't......understand.......

I'm angry, just because I hate it when people don't tell me when they're going away. -_-'

I feel independent. Kinda lonely, but independent is a good feeling. My boyfriend, the man I seriously thought I would spend the rest of my life with (he even "unofficially" asked me to marry him) broke up with me because we had a fight and he got "confused" about his feelings for me. Apparently, the situation had turned into the same as other relationships he had had... but in reality he's stupid. He's a loser. He wants to quit school so he can work in a dead-end job just because his best friend can get him in.
Come to think of it, I honestly think my ex is and always has been infactuated with his best friend. It's not that his best friend purposely influences his decisions, it's all his own doing. Everything his friend has ever done, ever been part of, every said, has been repeated or admired by my ex.  :confused:
I feel stronger since the end, but occasionally I still miss him, even though I know he's a loser...
But for the moment, I feel independent.  :)

I don't like independence to such a degree. I want her back  :-\

...I feel worse than how I felt last time I posted in this thread, and I didn't feel good then  :rant:

I feel ecstatic! I just got a new job with Coca Cola! I promised myself I would leave my current job by the end of 2004 before I end up in a mental home, and I did it! So much testing, so many interviews etc. and I got it! Such a relief!

like shit!!!!!!!

the horrible downpours of rain have forced me to stay home instead of seein my baby. :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

sorry honey  :'( :'(

Damn! Think of how good it will be now, when you DO see her.. double the excitement and feeling :)

 :hihi: That's a crap excuse! How does ran stop you from going out, unless you don't want to go out anyway?!

edit: I do of course mean 'rain', not 'ran'  : ok:

Maybe he just finished blowdrying his hair and didn't want to mess it up?  :D

Nah, that's still crap!

hahaha good one skippy!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am here, i left late last night and drove in the dark and the rain cause she is definitely worth it, im sittin at her computer now typin to u dicks!!!!!!!!!!!  u guys are right there is no excuse and thats why i came

yes skippy my hair is nice and blow dried and looks nice and i am mullet free, i got  a haircut and its kinda short, i hate it!!!

how i feel right now hmm let me see scared for one i have been having severe pain in my lymph node for a week now and went to the clinic for it and it is swollen like crazy and if it doesn't get better in a month then i have to have it removed. :nervous: i've never had surgery or been cut open and for my body to do this to me now i'll be pissed off. >:(

Relieved that D couldn't make it to my place last night.

Glad you realised the error of your ways  : ok: I live in England, so rain is something I just gotta live with. Funny how, even when you're at your girlfriend's, you still can't resist coming on HTGTH  :P

i jump on while she is in the shower!!!!! : ok: : ok: : ok: : ok:

its ok misfit theres always next week for us big boy : ok: :hihi: :hihi:

Yea, I thought I lost my virginity back sometime ago. Turned out it didn't count....it was a 'hanging chad'...

The worst part is when he puts the tent in the yard...

He'll wait until you have to come out of the house....

He does that with you too?

You bastard D, you told me I was special.

Way to seize the moment.

u are special chris, SLC doesnt mean anything to me, u are the only one i call poodle :hihi: :hihi: :hihi: :hihi: :hihi: :hihi: :hihi:



on a sadder note, i got home today and this girl that i have known since i was a little kid died of a drug overdose, i just dont understand why people do hard drugs, i dont guess i ever will.

RIP

Sucks, eh  :-\ I think the problem is that some people don't understand the potential consequences. Either that, or they weigh up the possible advantages (acceptance in certain social groups etc.) and disadvantages, and just make the wrong decision. I would never do it. I feel like shit at the moment, and have done for a while now, but I couldn't ever be desperate enough to venture into the world of drugs, n' all that crap.

Sorry to hear about your loss.

Sorry about your loss.

There are certainly examples all around us of why we should not do drugs.

she dated my best friend for a few years and after they broke up, which was about 4 years ago she just never recovered for whatever reasons, she started doin pills and i guess just got hooked.

i hadnt talked to her for a long time but when i use to see her out id talk to her and try and give her advice etc but u cant help people who dont wanna be helped.

she had broke her ankle and went to the doctor and they gave her two shots of demerol, she went home and took some methadone and the mixture of upper and downer made her heart stop.

the wake was tonight from 6-9 and i went to it which was weird cause i hate those types of things her family thanked me for bein her friend and for tryin to help her, ive already ran down one of my friends named Jason who recently started back doin stuff and i gave him the stiffest,sternest, heartfelt lecture i could.

people on this board who have just experimented with lighter drugs and are curious, please dont ever do hard drugs, they arent cool, they dont make u cool, they destroy your life and kill u.

u end up dead or in jail, so if u havent started and have been thinking about, please dont, all the popularity or coolness in the world just isnt worth it.

so please look around at those who u know are on the stuff and look how shitty their lives are and please reconsider if u are thinkin about doin em.

think of your loved ones and dont put them through that.

I feel really bad still  :-\

Friday night, I got very upset. Swore at my mother for the first time in my life, made my 20 year old sister cry, made myself cry (my eyes and nose didn't recover until the next day :-\), rang a friend to ask if I could go live with him for a while (he didn't answer), and eventually ended up writing a 4 page letter to my mum - because I can't bring myself to talk to her about my deepest feelings - explaining how torn up my heart is about stuff, mainly my break-up in October, and my ongoing religious indecision, or "running from faith", as I called it in the letter. I wrote about how I'm going to finally just commit, and become a Christian. She cried when she read it (Every member of my family, bar one, is a Christian, so I guess the tears were joyful), and I cried more whilst I sat there in the room with her. I haven't once, since then, felt the sort of joy I was always told you feel when you become a Christian, because I'm finding it so hard to stop thinking about my ex. I'm still as much in love with her as I always was, and I still want her back...and now it seems like I'm losing/I've lost her friendship as well  :'( And it's completely tearing me apart. Thurday night, we agreed not to be in contact until January, so we could have some time away from it all, and start our friendship afresh in the new year, but she just...didn't seem to care. She's seemed so distant recently, and said she doesn't feel comfy talking to me anymore. Although I didn't experience much joy on Friday night, I did feel like I had finally managed to stop living in the past, and fearing the future, but now I'm not so sure, and I really don't know what to do  :-\ It hurt so much, the way she walked away from it all, when things had been so perfect for a while, and it hurts that she doesn't seem to care about me anymore. Or at least, she doesn't show it. I guess maybe she finds it hard when all I ever do is bring up issues she doesn't want to discuss anymore. She seems to be getting on with her life, whereas I feel kinda paralysed. I guess maybe what I'm upset about now is simply the thought of how I might lose her friendship, and I'm going to have to wait a few weeks until I find out if I truly am ready to start our friendship afresh, without bringing up details of our break-up half the time. Maybe all this happened for a reason, maybe God brought me to such despair so that I would finally turn to him, but it sure ain't easy, and I wish things were different  :( The night we agreed to wait until January to talk again, she said "and if you dont wanna get in touch again....ok", and I just don't know why she said that. It's killing me to think that maybe she doesn't want me to talk to her again, but on the other hand maybe she said it purely for my sake, because I know she's still in love with me, and she suggested a few weeks ago we stop talking because she didnt see me moving on otherwise. But I can't even begin to think about living my life without her friendship, and I just...dunno.

i feel happy i'm feeling better and i kept watching my wonderful loving husband sleep so cute.

dude ive been there let me tell u.

i know how u feel right now, and i know how hard it is to sit there in that prison u are in with your brain constantly thinking and not shutting off. its hard, very very hard, one of the hardest things u will ever have to go through. but u can do it.

God does have a plan for you and he has one for everybody.

i remember being in the exact place as u are right now and i started goin to church cause nothin else worked, i lasted about a month and slowly failed but i never lost faith in God and i never stopped praying that he would send me "the one"

that was in 1998 and it took God 6 years to finally send me the one and im so thankful now i have who i have now, i never thought i would ever or could ever feel stronger for someone as i did that girl at the time but let me tell u dude, comparing my girl now to that girl then is like comparing a ferrari to a ford escort.

U just have to realize that we all have trials and tribulations, tests we all go through in life, its all how u handle it and what u make of it.

u can make great,postitive things come out of this horrible pain, or u can make bad, negative things happen its your choice

just remember that life wont always be this way, it wont hurt forever and happiness will find u again.

the wise words of SLCPunk reign so true, for every door that shuts another one opens and its the same as this.

If she wasnt the one u will find someone that is if u allow yourself and u will love her even more than the girl u never dreamt u could live without.

pain and tragedy are the times when u grow as a person, its the times u discover things and build up strengths and life lessons u can always look back upon if u are ever in another bad way.


its ok to hurt, its ok to cry but turn this into a positive, make something good come out of this.

good luck man, i know how hard it is and how much it hurts but hang in there, keep the faith and be positive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like i can?t feel my legs..
I?m too drunk.

Where?s Hippiechick by the way?

i feel like doing a shit load of drugs, and picking up my guitar and playing till my heart explodes

Alright, the drugs are about to take hold, I got the axe?here we go?rock on

Hey you know what gunners, the most frustrating thing for me about waiting for the new album?this whole waiting to hear something, waiting to listen to something, and then the rumors, the anticipation, and then nothing?is that, I feel I bought an illusion from him, and I put it on the wall, I let it feel my head with dreams, and I want to hear that mother fucking CD Axl!

?continue to rock
Using My Illusions  :smoking:

^ I bet he's really at the library reading: Watermelons! What a curious fruit!

i love watermelons

But aren't you curious.........?

crappy..i'm tired..my head hurts..and i feel unimportant and so on and so on..nothing new : ok:

Really upset and fucking pissed off. After only a month and a half me and my girlfriend called it quits. I dont know if I want to go cry under the covers or go punch someones fucking face in, I really dont. And I thought Christmas time is a happy time.. :-[

6 weeks ain't that long bro. You'll find another one soon, that's the best way to get over the first one.  ;D

I'm tired, but happy as shit.

Got tomorrow off and I'm going to eat food and watch movies.

Merry x-mas everyone.

I got first complain about my dogs since I wasn't home at night and they did cry after me. No night-shifts for me anymore. This morning there was complains about dog hair in the laundry-room because I had had my dogs with me, fuckers, what do they expect when I wash my clothes, off course there's gonna be dog-hair. One more and I have to move, and when they've taken me as target off course there's gonna be more complains.

Then I really did care about a girl with I got together at our companys x-mas party. I mean I did know it wouldn't work, but time went by and it did seem possible, she talked about leaving her bf, but a kid makes it harder. So I usually keep my guard up but she found a way to my heart. My mistake. But I'm not going to cry after anyone, so I did hit the bar, picked a girl for comfort, I just got her suicide sms. I won't even call her, I'm sick and tired about my best friend talking about comitting suicide every day to get some pity.

I mean if I'd be in that bad shape you'd just read about it in the death-notifications at the paper and I'd leave no explanations or anything.

Add to that I'm broke since my second job "forgot" to pay me.

Oh, and my ex did call me and tell me how bad a person I am. She should try for a few weeks to work 13 hours a day just to pay the dues and take care of two dogs to top that. Off course I'm not enough with them but I just have to do what I have to do and just try to live the best I can.

Yeah.. merry x-mas everyone.

Shit, you wanna hug or something?!!  ??? Sounds like you've been having a rough time  :-\ My ex pretty much told me how bad I was too, last night. Well she told someone else, and I had the conversation passed on to me. She said about how much I annoyed her when we were together, blah blah blah...it really fucking hurt. I at least thought she cherished the moments we shared, but it would seem not. She's messed up though, she doesn't know what she wants or what she really feels, but she denies it all and thinks she's fine. The one good thing about finding out some of the things she said about how she couldn't stand being so close to someone etc., is that it's had an immediate effect in forcing me to take another step towards letting go.

I feel like flicking my bag. Hard.

Yeah, let's all have a nice fuzzy group hug to lift the x-mas spirit :) Thanks Tj :)

But something good happens too, I talked with my boss, and he told me he's gonna put in a good word for me when my company is opening a new office, so I'd be the boss there, my pays gonna rise maybe a 1000 euros. I just wish I'd get it. I'll know for sure in two months.

Off course I'll have to move, some of my friends at work told me they'll come to work for me too, so I won't have to start blank.

Wait phone.. sms from the suicide girl.. "Hi, I'm in a really bad mood, what would you do to make me feel better? Answer me!" For fucks sake is she waiting me to get her speed or just needing me to fuck her?! Anyway my helping line's out of order. It's enough to keep myself from sliding.

I had a good day at school which featured:

Completely acing my Spanish Test
Completely acing my Chemistry test
Getting a ride home
and Mocking Eagle fans out.